Story of My Life Pt. 10 by Jake McClintick 2/5/2019
To have lots hate be gone is so much better.
I have heard God has good, awesome purpose my life. Not sure exactly what has planned, but I am sure I have lots to look forward to.
I can tell my life isn’t reality most have, most not have autism. That doesn’t mean my life is really not important. Maybe there is a reason I don’t understand, have to trust God. Have fabulous, awesome love – life not so bad!
Hate life not good. Not so fun to make myself believe lies. Seem so true. Now I follow the voice of Love. Hear it more than those stupid lies. Not make my nothing most big.
So much better to have my heart in home, God. Home is not a house. It is home in hearing I belong on this planet. Life most challenging here. Like God as helper.
Most good love into my heart deals with my anger and hate. I have most good love and awesome joy now.
At the age of 22 he began expressing his very personal thoughts and feelings more fluently with me (his mom), and it was his idea to begin writing “The Story of My Life” one day. This is his tenth entry to that story.
Jake is diagnosed with severe autism as well as intermittent explosive disorder. He has given me permission to share his story and our conversations. He continually expresses his desire to “find purpose” to his life…I hope his willingness to share will help others learn about this misunderstood condition known as “autism” that has so much to teach us all.