Story of My Life Pt. 13 by Jake McCClintick 2/25/19
Good that my mom not great at getting me to do much. So much of my life I not get to control. Not like other lives I can see. Most have control over life decisions. I have only things in only my house I am becoming able to control.
My autism not make it easy to lead myself through life. Autism makes me dependent on mom. Not so easy not to get mad about that, though not her fault. Not so like myself is really who I get mad at. Then I angry at God. Not helpful to anyone.
My mom eager help me learn about God and having strength in my love. Really makes more sense.
Most cope not God so well. Still most not have peace even not dealing autism. Most helpful to learn about God every day to get mind in better state. Not autism to be afraid of – most hate in hearts is the real enemy. Not good all time hear most stupid lies nothingness of my life.
I am important to God. So am important to myself to have a peaceful life even with autism. So glad not lies controlling my heart now. Have control eager to another absolutely can not be forced. Really have to have willingness to have God’s love all time in my heart.
No one can force God on anyone, but we can share our experiences. This is mine right now.
At the age of 22 he began expressing his very personal thoughts and feelings more fluently with me (his mom), and it was his idea to begin writing “The Story of My Life” one day. This was his 13th entry to that story. He is diagnosed with severe autism as well as intermittent explosive disorder. He has given me permission to share his story and our conversations. He continually expresses his desire to “find purpose” to his life…I hope his willingness to share will help others learn about this misunderstood condition known as “autism” that has so much to teach us all.