Story of My Life (#3) by Jake McClintick – October 19, 2018
Not happy my deal in life. Most not mean to be hard, angry, and so aggressive. I hate so much God making me have autism. Hate having so much bad thoughts. Not sure really is a God. Get not so mad because autism, get angry at myself for bad anger. Bad anger not acceptable. Most my anger is my own hate, not anyone’s fault. Might be angry at God. Not sure my soul has purpose in this life. My anger is more a problem than my autism.
My life might not be so bad if I not so mad about everything. Maybe I not be mad at God so much. Might be my own problem I need to take responsibility for, I not sure how exactly to do that. Like to think it isn’t my fault I am this way. To blame God my soul hurts. Anger such a bad feeling. Not pleased to share such rotten stuff.
Jake has given me permission to share his story and our conversations. He continually expresses his desire to “find purpose” to his life…I hope his willingness to share will help others learn about this misunderstood condition known as “autism” that has so much to teach us all..