STORY OF MY LIFE PT. 26 BY JAKE MCCLINTICK 9/30/19
Not sure to have happiness is my reality. Not having happy thoughts so easy my mind. Most hard to stop my bad thoughts.
My life not like others I see. I have not had nice, able body to do things. Only to get life deal having autism I get bad thoughts I can’t control.
My mom is trying to help me have healthier brain. Healthy to not most have life autism. I do though, can’t change that.
Only God knows how I can deal not able to do things my age others do. I can only imagine not having autism, hurts my heart. Not most happy having too much anger. Most not want to lose control.
I eager to have a happy life. Today I am only not so sure that is possible. So not really sure most good, nice help is helping or not.
Dealing these thoughts not easy.
Regardless, this low-tech alternative communication system has been an answered prayer for us both. At the age of 22 he began expressing his very personal thoughts and feelings more fluently with me (his mom), and it was his idea to begin writing “The Story of My Life” one day. This was his 26th entry to that story. He is diagnosed with severe autism as well as intermittent explosive disorder.
He has given me permission to share his story and our conversations. He continually expresses his desire to “find purpose” to his life…I hope his willingness to share will help others learn about this misunderstood condition known as “autism” that has so much to teach us all.